If I could be anything what would I be?....

I wonder a lot if I am living the life I was meant to live...am I making the most of this life that is mine?  My mind is a wonderful thing...visions of me as a motivational speaker, a brave and bold special needs advocate, an athlete...oh the wonderful things my imagination gives me...it's exciting!  I get lost in those visions a lot...and more so lately than ever before.  The other night I marveled at the blessings that are mine...I remember as a child being fascinated with this song it went something like "when I grow up, I want to be a mother, and have a family, one little two little 3 little children of my own...and I will love them all day long...."  and really I didn't dream of being a surgeon or teacher or astronaut or chef or athlete or movie star...I dreamed of marrying my true love and having a family!!!  I may not be something major to the world but I am something major to my family....and I am that motivational speaker...to my children, the cheerleader to my husband and I am the advocate that my Christie and other girls need...I am brave and bold...I am the athlete...and I am whatever I set out to become because I am powerful...made of GREATNESS...a quiet, humble, reserved greatness that doesn't need to be admired and oohed by the world...I am content and honored that to my family, I am special, I am the best mommy, the best wife...so smart so brave and I am so loved!!!
I am not able to use words to express correctly my feelings...vocabulary is not my best tool...I am always at a lost for the perfect word that says just what I need to express...so everything I've just said...is really not how it played out in my brain...interesting isn't it?!!?  It's okay though...my imagination gives me the joy of being the writer I've always wanted to be!  So...anyway, back to the question above...am I living the life I was meant to live...??  YES...it just took a little bit of time to ponder what I always have wanted from my life...and I can still be some of these other things I want to be...but for now...there are some things that need more attention then others...because I have some babies to raise...some future surgeons, athletes, and mothers...and I am so proud to be a mother.  It's not easy to be a parent...sometimes I wonder why we even had children...but then I am reminded...almost every minute of the day....and I will be content to know that I could die...even tomorrow...and that my best accomplishments were my 5 masterpieces I created with a man I feel was made for me!!!  Mike is amazing...he is so loving and tender and such a smart guy...Our Heavenly Father knew I needed Mike Holly and he was put in my path and I am sooo thankful I was in the right place at the right time!  Timing....it's amazing!
hmm...well, I needed this moment of spitting out what's inside...I will be able to fall asleep now without all this stuff bouncing around in my noggin...I have to be up in 4 hrs...bike riding with my neighbor unless it's too cold...but I hope it's not!  well...hope this makes some sort of sense...if not then the benefit was only mine as now I am tired and I am OUT...xoxoxo