In 13 days Mike returns to move us! Which means we'll be together as a family then and no more living without Mike and no more Mike living without us! It's been hell but it hasn't ... unless you've lived it you just don't understand...and I've learned a lot about myself and grown a lot and was just telling a friend that I know the majority of strength came from my Heavenly Father! I am learning a lot about personal revelation and the Holy Ghost and the last 3 weeks in church have been ALL about it...and it's just what I've needed to learn and help me and to teach to my children...it's like Heavenly Father has given me this info over and over as if to say HELLO AMY...You aren't alone and I've given you what you need to feel my love and have the help you need along the way...I've just felt so alone in a sense...and only truly understood by my Heavenly Father.

I lack the vocabulary to express my needs and wants clearly to those that need to understand and so I've been frustrated and sad...and it is only intensified by other stuff lately and especially a move in which I am NOT happy about...seriously only happy that we'll be together again as a family and that we are closer to our parents and siblings...I've grown so attatched to the beauty of VA and my ward family and other friends...sucks...however I am positive I'll meet new ones...Mike said our neighbors are cool and many people in our new ward live in our neighborhood...so that rocks!!!

I am tired...we had a fun busy spiritually fed day...enjoyed an awesome baptism of Ryan Hafley's today...it was spiritual and I never fail to remember my own and I get so emotional when the prayer for the gift of the Holy Ghost is given...beautiful, and powerful!!! I am just overwhelmed with gratitude Heavenly Father LOVE ME...even when I don't feel so worthy of it!!! xoxoxoxo