feeling bummed and alone...not easy...want to run away sometimes...but wouldn't...I love what my sister posted the other day on FB..."if...just IF I were a drinking woman (which I am NOT) I would be so wasted right now"...problems don't go away when we drink or wish them away...I am learning to face them...probs are like an infected splinter in our foot...hurts to walk...affects everything...so to fix em...you've got to open the wound, dig it out...clean it, put antibiotics on it, and then let it heal!!! so I am trying to fix my probs the right way...

not feeling so bummed now that I am just talking...writing...helps...part of the clean it process I guess. anyway I listened to one of the General Conference talks by Elder Richard G. Scott and it was on the healing power of the Savior and His Atoning Sacrifice. I am comforted that the Savior truly knows how I feel...I am not alone...and I am learning to go to Him with my woes instead of calling my sisters or mom or Mike or a friend...still would all boil down to taking it to the Lord anyway so why burden them...anyway I am tired...