LIFE W/O HUBBY - DAY 14

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOGAN. MY BROTHER IS ONE DAY OLDER AND HOPEFULLY WISER:)

HUBBY COMES HOME DAY 41..my countdown holds excitement...I am one more day closer to seeing him. My evening didn't go as planned or desired. I was way too tired to go to the Southern Living party...I really wanted to for some good company and food, but had such crabby babies and exhausted. My desired long talk with Mike never happened. I had myself a small pity party of feeling woe is my lonely self, till I fell asleep...lol...it didn't last long:) I am trying to be strong not having him here...there is no doubt that I can do it...I just don't want to! My girls are lonely for him too...I only heard Jaimie vocalize it though yesterday....see I had Nolan and Ainslee Burns...and Gena was going to come pick them up after she picked Jeff up from the Airport ( he was coming home from being in Vegas with Mike for 13 days)...anyway Jaimie said "am I going to see my daddy too?":(..."no" I said and she said "Why" as she was squirming and trying not to cry...how stinkin sad is that....it made my eyes sting.

It doesn't take much to make my eyes sting. I know it has to do with just having a baby and being a mother in general. I have become so overly sensitive to things with motherhood, which brings out the baby in me and the bear/lion in me. If there is an in-between then I don't know that yet.

I am really giddy having found my workout dvd's...I am still missing one of them, but I have a wide variety of them now that I can get my 3 days of cardio and 2 days of strength training in. I am even going to have my yoga day...Saturday...and I can even have a yoga day on Sunday to just stretch and help me relax and clear my mind. A HUGE shoutout to Gena for her talent in helping ME as I know she does others...to become my best self. She gave me an eating plan and workout plan...and I still have to go to her house and get my measurements...as much as that sucks it's necessary to own up to someone and know my successes in my move forward. I have a 1/2 marathon to prepare for....right NICOLE?? we HAVE to do what we said we would...I told Gena the other day I kindof sortof have a goal to do a half marathon with my sisiter...and she laughed...what kind of a goal is a kindof sortof one...sooooo with that said...I am biting the bullet...no excuses or half-hearted goals here. I WILL RUN A HALF MARATHON by the end of 2010...to celebrate my hard work I will have put into making my body the best it can be.

I am really pleased with the self control I have had over this past week at not eating past dinner...feels great...I sleep better and my appetite for breakfast is stronger. I used to just share breakfast with Christie and feel stuffed...I've got to have my own now:)

Well, I hope I get a good visit today with Mike. I am looking forward to going to church today too. It's 8am...I gotta go get Christie out of bed and get going in getting ready! xoxoxoxox till later.

Church went well and all was fine, we made it during sacrament. I had great help from Paula Franklin...so random and fyi she did my taxes and we are getting a refund...yippee....I thought we were going to have to pay!

Not so fun of an evening with the kids...tired, grouchy, loud...we all felt that...anyway...I have a busy week ahead of me.

Am talking with Mike and am gonna jet so we can visit!!!