THUMP
Tonight...I feel beaten down...thumped on...plus it's almost midnight so however worse I feel is only magnified cuz I am tired...but I am going to get this off my chest...so I apologize now...don't take offense anybody...
I hate stupid rude people...and just because you are old doesn't mean you are going to get away with it!!! ah...there is this woman in my ward who truly grates my every nerve...if I weren't a woman of decent values or with children or a husband or with the desire to enjoy freedom, fresh air and sunlight...I'd poke her eyeballs out!!! Am I clear on just how bad I cannot stand this person. She and I had a previous run in before over a message she wanted in the Sunday Bulletin...I am in charge of that every Sunday...and I felt her message was too lengthy and said I'd put her info in but leave out the dialogue (really dumb anyway and unnecessary for the bulletin...repeat it in Relief Society) anyway, she replied in an email that she'd be so offended yada yada if I don't put it in the way she wants and all this other nonsense...and so I...well Mike in place of me, put her in her place...in a very over the top, made me out to be a self-righteous person..but he was actually giving her a taste of her own medicine....so now I think she has it out for me...and she appears nice and all but tonite she came up to me and says "Amy are you pregnant?"....Mind you, I've been in the ward almost 3 years...and I haven't gained nor lost anything since having Christie...so what the hell...who if they aren't sure asks a question like that anyway...she went and pissed me off...so I...with attitude said "NO, I'm just fat!"...and she said..."oh, putting it on huh!?"...and walked away. ummm...does she not deserve a little Stooge action where I slap her around a bit and poke her eyeballs out!?!?!? I know I'm just slightly pissed...this is twice now...within a month that I've been assumed to be pregnant!?!?! Sign to kick it up a notch in my workouts!?!?!? Where are manners? I know I'm losing it...being I almost &*$@# slapped her! ugh...I should have played it off like Mike mentioned..but that's after the fact...hello...doesn't help now. He says I should have told her that I was pregnant and not to tell anyone because Mike doesn't know and it's not his! whatever!
K...I am done..she doesn't deserve the energy I put into being pissed...so (spit)...I am done. she's kaput...spit out...k!
So...to start fresh, I am going to go out of my way to watch the things I say and be better, I can't help the stupidity of others, and I can only change me...and how I react and handle things. So...I am Amy Holly, and I have belly fat...and thigh, hip and arm and chin and well...even finger and toe fat...so anyway, I am busy, I work out, and I don't sit on the couch and pop twinkies or eat ice cream from the carton...so...there...I will not allow myself to be offended by the ignorance of others. I will however make fun of them to close friends and family!!! LOL!!!
k...love love
I am off to bed!
I hate stupid rude people...and just because you are old doesn't mean you are going to get away with it!!! ah...there is this woman in my ward who truly grates my every nerve...if I weren't a woman of decent values or with children or a husband or with the desire to enjoy freedom, fresh air and sunlight...I'd poke her eyeballs out!!! Am I clear on just how bad I cannot stand this person. She and I had a previous run in before over a message she wanted in the Sunday Bulletin...I am in charge of that every Sunday...and I felt her message was too lengthy and said I'd put her info in but leave out the dialogue (really dumb anyway and unnecessary for the bulletin...repeat it in Relief Society) anyway, she replied in an email that she'd be so offended yada yada if I don't put it in the way she wants and all this other nonsense...and so I...well Mike in place of me, put her in her place...in a very over the top, made me out to be a self-righteous person..but he was actually giving her a taste of her own medicine....so now I think she has it out for me...and she appears nice and all but tonite she came up to me and says "Amy are you pregnant?"....Mind you, I've been in the ward almost 3 years...and I haven't gained nor lost anything since having Christie...so what the hell...who if they aren't sure asks a question like that anyway...she went and pissed me off...so I...with attitude said "NO, I'm just fat!"...and she said..."oh, putting it on huh!?"...and walked away. ummm...does she not deserve a little Stooge action where I slap her around a bit and poke her eyeballs out!?!?!? I know I'm just slightly pissed...this is twice now...within a month that I've been assumed to be pregnant!?!?! Sign to kick it up a notch in my workouts!?!?!? Where are manners? I know I'm losing it...being I almost &*$@# slapped her! ugh...I should have played it off like Mike mentioned..but that's after the fact...hello...doesn't help now. He says I should have told her that I was pregnant and not to tell anyone because Mike doesn't know and it's not his! whatever!
K...I am done..she doesn't deserve the energy I put into being pissed...so (spit)...I am done. she's kaput...spit out...k!
So...to start fresh, I am going to go out of my way to watch the things I say and be better, I can't help the stupidity of others, and I can only change me...and how I react and handle things. So...I am Amy Holly, and I have belly fat...and thigh, hip and arm and chin and well...even finger and toe fat...so anyway, I am busy, I work out, and I don't sit on the couch and pop twinkies or eat ice cream from the carton...so...there...I will not allow myself to be offended by the ignorance of others. I will however make fun of them to close friends and family!!! LOL!!!
k...love love
I am off to bed!
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8 comments:
I Love you Amy!!! You are a beautiful person, with a beautiful personality. My mom always used to say, maybe she's jealous....In my opinion you rock! Keep your chin up! And when you see her coming walk away....and if you can't avoid her think of vegetables (I know totally random...)but you know me I have someone I have a hard time with and I avoid at all costs....
wow! I'm sorry. But ya what Diane said you are a beautiful person inside and out! Try not to let her get to you too much. I still can't believe she would say that though!
I think she is jealous of you! And has every right-YOU are AWESOME and do the best you can with what you are given. The last picture I saw of you, you looked GREAT! Keep up the great work and remember who you are- A DAUGHTER OF GOD, and He LOVES you so much NO matter what! :)
Love you
Amy sometimes I wonder what is wrong with people. Seriously who could be so insensitive to say such a thing. I mean I don't know anyone that would not feel totally crushed by such questions. Ahhh... Does she not have a brain?
As for me I thought I was finally making progress and maybe start taking a positive attitude about my weigh and my constant struggle with it. That was until I saw my husband after a few months apart and went pretty proud of my progress. He didn't really see it. So I thought well I am close to my goal I don't care if no one can tell. Well a few weeks after that I stepped on the scale and about fell off. What how could I be right back to the weight I was when I started this whole thing. What was the point of everyday struggling to get some exercise in. Why am I torturing myself. So now I am back on the defensive mode, "no I am not really trying to lose weight. I do it for the fun." (I just keep telling people that so my failure doesn't seem so obvious.)
If it helps Amy, every time I see my sister-in-law she asks me if I'm pregnant. My sister called me out of the blue the other day and asked me the same thing. I have reviewed all the pictures I've posted on our family website and for the life of me I can't figure out why they seem to think I'm pregnant. Another note, when I was pregnant with Josiah, I had three women in the ward tell me they didn't know I was pregnant (they just knew I was fat). So, life is what it is. I wish there was some magic cure to help us overcome this obsession with weight (I'm obsessed with it anyway). I'm trying to change my attitude from wanting to be thin to just being healthy. It helps some but I still face the mirror every day and well you know how that goes. I agree with what others have said about you. You are just too adorable for words - you're BEAUTIFUL too both inside and out:). Here's one last thought that has also helped me lately..I look at my daughter and I see her and love her for who she is and really am not concerned at all about her weight (although according to my wonderful family I'm supposedly starving her but that's another story). I just love her for her. I try to imagine Heavenly Father looking at me like I look at Geneva and maybe just maybe he feels the same about me. It helps on those hard days...
Love ya' Rebekah
p.s. another funny note two of my husband's friends at work wanted John to give them $200 so they could "make me over". I guess I need that much help:) At least it wasn't $1,000.00:) John was so nice and said he didn't have $200 to give them so I would just have to stay as I am. Is that a compliment???
YOu are so great! I don't know if i could keep it that real. Yeah people piss me off sometimes but i don't have the guts to tell them how i feel. mY husband says i need to "grow a pair"(guy parts that is) I think you are wonderful and one of the best friends I have ever had. I miss our talks about... well you know. There are only a select few that i discuss things like that with. Well, keep your chin up and don't let it bug you. Yeah right! but I do agree with everyone else and that she is probably jealous of you. Just avoid her I guess. Luv luv.
Amy,
You could always key her car, that would make you feel better. Just kidding!
I am going to go out on a limb and tell you something that I have always thought about you. I have always thought about how I wanted to find a girl like you. Just as others have said, you are beautiful inside and out, but you also have such a great sense of humor, you are so funny and you were always such a great example of being active in church and had a wonderful testimony. I married a wonderful girl with those same qualities, but it was you who was that example to me of what I wanted to look for. I guess I was unlucky that you were older than me.
But thanks so much for being such a great example to me when I was in my younger, impressionable years. I know my family loves you so much and so many others as well.
Love,
Nathan Tanner
ha ha that is so funny. I agree with Mike you should have told an outrageous story. Ugg people I wonder if later she knew she stuck her foot in her mouth.
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