Pure Love

I love moments like now when the house is quiet and I was able to finish a good movie without interruptions. It's quiet moments like now that I am also able to feel such a peace and contentment with my life. I get caught up in whining about the woes of motherhood and housecleaning that never ends that I forget about the JOY in it all...the very loving beings I am serving. I am reminded of what I told my children when one complained about getting a cup for the other..."when ye are in the service of your fellow beings ye are only in the service of your God" I may have some wording wrong, but you get the point! I fail miserably to see that very thing I was trying to teach them. I see why it's important to have quiet moments...they bring these AH HA moments...but see I don't take much time for quiet...so I think I am going to just make time!
Love is beautiful, I am my husbands favorite old t-shirt. He told me once that that is how it felt for him, so comfortable and familiar that he wouldn't ever want it gone! I think a lot about that and like that! He's not much for mushy stuff and I've come to accept that...I've wished sometimes he were but then he wouldn't be the man I fell in love with...and I'd probably just end up hating the mush anyway!
I love my girls...who love me anyway even when I can be HAGATHA! It baffles me really...it's such a love I want back so bad...to be able to completely forgive and get over it...to be punished and within seconds want luvs from the punisher...I have to be careful though to the extent and heed the counsel to to show forth love afterward so I won't be esteemed as the enemy...and I am...I feel like I can see where my resentment is with my dad, but also the childlike love that is still within cuz no matter how crappy it was at times, I still love my dad!
I wonder if this all makes sense, but it's mostly for me to write...and just get it out so I can sleep well...having to not think to much of all the FEELING inside...
Tomorrow is going to be fun...Mike leaves for Jimmey Buffett concert with "Unkel DAVE" and we girls are going shopping and to Molly's birthday party! Yippee! I have to be up sooner than later to make cinn rolls for Mike and forgot to buy him shaving cream and charcoal! So....ya...gonna get to bed now!
xoxoxoxo