Cheating on myself

Chocolate
Cinnamon Rolls
Sticky Rice
Pizza

Here are a few pictures of things I've been cheating with:(

Why am I sabotaging my diet!?!?!? I get to have a cheat day so really what the he$$? I really feel like I am in some kind of funk...my hubby will say "the pain of not getting to eat this stuff is more than the pain of being fat" Whatever....I truly almost hate food...I am with Nicole in regards to being on a feeding tube at nite...but without the medical problems...oh which reminds me nicole I met a little boy at Ikea today who has a VERY rare lung disease and had a cute little backpack on that was carry his feeding stuff...she seemed shocked that I knew what it was!?!?! His name is GRANT and he's 2 and anyway...I don't feel like going back to my problem...which in comparison to Grant's isn't one...so sorry to have mentioned it...I am just lacking willpower and I will give my best especially tomorrow and to get me back into gear in honor of Savannah and Grant! Love luv